Funky. That’s how I’d describe how I’m feeling lately. I am struggling to find balance with my roles as a mother, a wife, and a woman. I feel pulled in three different directions. Sometimes, I just want to sit down and cry. Or run away to the mall. Or just plain run away.
Am I making the right choices as a mother? Am I giving my husband the amount of attention that he deserves and needs? Am I doing anything for me?
The only question that I can answer consistently with a strong yes, is that I am making the right choices as a mother. But that is because I don’t discuss those decisions with other mothers. Especially those that are more “experienced” than I am. I know that the choices that I’m making are the ones that are best for The Boy. They’re the ones that work best for our family. I don’t need to worry about what someone else is doing for their child.
If you are a mother, you know what I am talking about.
The desire to be the perfect wife, the perfect mom, and keep yourself all put together, too.
The three roles blend together well, yet are surprisingly different. It’s natural progression that I would have a career, then I would marry and then have a child. What isn’t so natural, or obvious, is how to balance these roles.
I don’t feel like I give The Texan all of the attention that he deserves. That is in part because I envy his time away from home. While it was – and is – my choice to stay home, I feel like he’s free to come and go as he wishes. I, on the other hand, feel like I need to clear it with him before going anywhere. If you’re a parent who stays at home, do you feel this way, too?
What do you do to find balance?